“There’s a lot of things to complain, a lot of things to struggle, a lot of burden to carry, a lot of situations to handle and even a lot of people and relationships that need some attention.”
Before my October had started, I already told myself that I’m going to make this month awesome since it is my birth month and indeed a very special month for me. I told myself that I won’t allow anything to mess up those coming days and somehow i’m still thinking how I can really make my October awesome?
My birthday came and indeed it was one of the best birthday I ever had yet. My friends surprised me with a basket of chocolates (which I really love!) and a compilation of greetings/messages from random (I mean friends) people and what made that day special is when I celebrated it together with my family. That’s more than enough. Well, I thought that’s the beginning of my awesome days but it seems everything turns 360. Final exams are out, feasibility studies defense are coming, a lot of requirements are still to be done, sleepless nights are already part of the cycle. My mind still shouting to finish it well but it seems that my body wants to gave up already. A lot of things were being compromised, patience becoming shorter, time for my family, time for my self and even my personal time with God are being set aside. And yes i’m still on half way but I already messed up. In a twinkle of an eye, the heaven pop-up in my mind, the place where there’s no more weeping, no more suffering, no more hurt and pain, no more burden to carry. How I wish to go there right now. I can’t stop but to let my tears to fall down, I can’t take this anymore. I really need God. I need to talk to God. Continue reading